Even though it feels like fall today it is sunny and gorgeous and I do not care. As long as it is not cloudy and dreary, I am happy. I am also happy because I am feeling better as of today. Praise to God, that depite it being almost 3 weeks of being in this pain, He hears my prayers.
Let me tell you something. This has truly been a test for me. Have I been a whiny baby and been obnoxious to be around? I have tried really hard to be a good sport about how I am feeling but there were days I was in tears because the pain was excrutiating. Yes. I have really never been in this type of pain before. I really was not convinced yet to take Vicodin because I was not thrilled at ALL to be giving that to my baby even if the doctor says it is safe.
A test of how I have been feeling is when my husband tells me today that he has not seen me as happy as I have been today in 2 weeks. Is that not sad? Even my appetite seems a little back to normal.
Either way, back to testing. I really realized that my reliance on self is futile. If I proclaim to be a Christian and do not depend on my Creator to be my sustainer even in my pain, what is the point? Hopelessness sets in and then depression and self-pity. I questioned God why I needed to go through this because I was definitely not enjoying being pregnant. I find it healthy to question God just as long as I know that my dependence is still for Him.
Ironic enough, this time has really been teaching me to continually stay in prayer and to remember my first love, the God who has given me the gift of life in my womb even if it means going through pain just for a little bit. I can’t explain why it appeared but I know it has made me stronger and continually makes me stronger.
My husband’s patience is also a test of love, the love God has for me. Ryan has truly been patient and has been such an amazing husband through this time. We sure have not been tested as much as now, especially when it comes to our characters.
Our 3rd anniversary is tomorrow and I can only continue to thank God for such a loving and supporting husband. It is really worth the wait for the man God has ready for you all out there!
I did promise you a recipe. Before I left for Houston almost a week and a half ago, we were invited to a BBQ at one of Ryan’s professors’ home. Even in a bit of pain, I decided to bring a baked good because that is what I enjoy preparing the most.
I grew up making 7-up pound cakes all the time. I also remember the countless of sticks of butter it took too. *shudder* but somehow, eating one slice was not such a guilty pleasure because it was going to be shared with others.
I took a favorite and added some summer fruits and spruced it up with a yummy icing. It is delicious and it will keep people guessing with all the flavors it has. Noone really believes it has 7-up but it makes this bundt look nice and special. Make it this summer!
Bake in the preheated oven for 70 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted into the center of the cake comes out clean. Allow to cool on a cake rack for 30 minutes before removing from the pan.